I'm not quite sure anymore.

Ever felt like you had to live up to some sort of unspoken expectations that your family and friends have set up for you? Yeah. That's been me, ever since about April of 2008. I kind of rushed into picking a career, because I thought I had a deadline before all of the money that my grandparents had invested into this Heritage Fund would vanish. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'd really like to be a nurse and all, it's just not this dream that I've had for years or anything. I did not expect this course to be so tough when I first enrolled in it. I knew it would be tough, but I didn't expect this. People keep telling me that "Oh you're so smart, Sarah, you're so smart, blah blah blah," Of course I am! And is every other person out there.....at their own pace. This whole course is insanely condensed, it's so much information to absorb in such a short time. I know I could do it, if these classes didn't come in 5 week increments. I could do this, if it were more spread out. I'm just not that booksmart. Sorry everyone.

I already have to re-take my Anatomy course, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to take my Patho course over again as well. We don't have the money to do that. I don't see how I can go on without being at least a semester behind. I have an appointment to talk to my course coordinator tomorrow to see what my options are, and just to tell her what's going on.

SIGH.

My life in a nutshell. Hate it right now.

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